through it all I know, You are God alone.

Well, all I can say is wow.

I have been through such a pile of crap over the past, I don't even know how long. I used to think I'd always refer to the past six months, then year, now year and a half...but I'm starting to think I won't be back to normal, which is a WONDERFUL thing. Let me explain:

2 Corinthians 12:7-10 (MSG)
7-10Because of the extravagance of those revelations, and so I wouldn't get a big head, I was given the gift of a handicap to keep me in constant touch with my limitations. Satan's angel did his best to get me down; what he in fact did was push me to my knees. No danger then of walking around high and mighty! At first I didn't think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then he told me,

My grace is enough; it's all you need.
My strength comes into its own in your weakness.
Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.

I used to be discouraged by this verse. Really. I used to think it meant something like:

I'll never get it together for Christ, and He's gonna say His grace is enough to make me feel better, but He's really pretty upset I'll never get it together.

But I think it's actually God's plan for us NOT to have it all together, figured out. Read Genesis 11 if you want to see an example of this. He does it to show His sovereignty. He confuses the language of Babel, where people were trying to build this huge tower and live there forever. God Himself says, "If they go through with this, they'll be able to do anything, and not acknowledge Me. I'll go confuse them."
At first glance, this probably looks like pride on God's part. He's probably thinking, "Oh, no! I might lose control! I'm gonna go the coward's way out so they can't do this without Me. HA!" No, I believe His intentions were greater.
Humans were never meant to live off ourselves. We're meant to live off of God, and His Word. So He did it so they could really lead a better life. That's my opinion, I'm no Bible expert, Lord knows.

The point is, we're not meant to live off of ourselves. We're not even intended to evangelize, or worship, in our own strength. In the book Facedown, I read a well-stated fact that worship itself is in the Holy Spirit. God receives worship through His Son, who gives us grace to worship.
God gives us these imperfections, these faults for His glory. Maybe its a lack of understanding. Maybe it's timidity. I don't know...but ask God to show you your imperfections and how they can be used for His glory. How can He be glorified in you?

See, I went through this whole phase I went through (I'm sorry I beat this horse to death...) for God's glory, I truly believe. I didn't try to get into it, I didn't think I'd get into it, I just kind of went into autopilot, and ended up in a hole. There have been several times when I look back at the Christian I was, and I probably would have ended up down a miserable road of people who would point to themselves into Jesus for the answer to life. I thank God for that wound. I really do. His grace IS enough.