Long time no write...long time need to write. I think I've almost moved on from journaling, but I guess it's still kinda cool.

Have you ever made a "Lord, change me here" kind of list?
I have one of those. I never really write them down, but it's stuff I keep in my head that sometimes comes up, but usually remains unrepeated and then, without realizing it, God really does it. Stuff like giving me a work ethic...it's usually not a magical moment when all of a sudden I'm entirely different, but something that happens over a few weeks of going to work and class and doing my best and then realizing that's all I can really do.
Anyway, what's on the list right now is something like this, "Lord, change my fear of the future/Lord, change my fear of being someone I'm not."
A good friend of mine and I have talked about stuff we want to do, one of which is to write a movie/TV show, which is actually what I'm going to school for. I am still scared of stereotypes, though...I don't want to JUST be a writer, you know? I am scared of that being what defines me. As Paul says, I don't want to have confidence in the flesh.
I want to be a Christian first and foremost, and a writer second.
Maybe it doesn't make much sense, but oh well.