training wheels.

I keep looking at that "problem of perfection" blog of mind and it kind of bothers me. Well, really doesn't concern me, kind of makes me laugh. When you think about it, we won't be perfect until we get to heaven. I mean seriously.
And I've really come to learn that it's not our actions and behaviors, habits, practices, and whatnot that gets us to a place of "perfection," also known as righteousness. The gospel is not about us accepting Jesus as our Lord and Savior, and Him leaving us alone to do our own thing, trying to do His thing. He doesn't ask us to advance His Kingdom with Him not the ruling King. Think of it this way.
A young boy gets a bicycle for Christmas. It's a nice, expensive, versatile mountain bike, but it's too big for him, and there are no training wheels.
What kind of gift is that? Now, on the other hand, another young boy gets a bike small enough for him to ride, and, it has training wheels. Ohhhh yeah. Now we're in business.
Jesus said, "Don't bargain with God. Be direct. Ask for what you need. This isn't a cat-and-mouse, hide-and-seek game we're in. If your child asks for bread, do you trick him with sawdust? If he asks for fish, do you scare him with a live snake on his plate? As bad as you are, you wouldn't think of such a thing. You're at least decent to your own children. So don't you think the God who conceived you in love will be even better?"
(Matthew 7:7-11, The Message)
The point I'm trying to make is that we really do not have to rely on our strength, merit, etc. Jesus has enough strength for us when we're weak, He has grace when we fail, He is faithful when we are absolutely faithless.
You don't have to depend on yourself to engage in meaningful worship, to study the word. You put yourself out there, and you won't be disappointed.
"But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him."
Hebrews 11:6. That's a promise of God. Stand on that promise.